The news has been sinking in for over a week now.
We are having a baby boy!!!!
I didn’t think I’d be as excited as I am, but I am just thrilled for many reasons. Little boys are so cute, especially with their moms, in the same way little girls are daddy’s little angels. I am so happy that Mason will have a little brother. Brothers and the relationships they have are so important, especially later in life. I’m thankful that he and J won’t be suffocated by a cloud of estrogen and perhaps this little guy will create some balance, although being perfectly honest, Addie is more of a bruiser as a toddler than Mason ever was. I anticipate a future of many mood swings involving Ana, Addie, and myself and I think the men that are around that while growing up become more rounded men. Seriously! I dated a guy that was an only child once and he had absolutely no clue about women. Another guy I dated only had a brother, and the dynamics in a relationship in which the male has little or no experience with sisters is so evident in how he handles practically everything.
I am so happy to be giving J a son of his own. Don’t get me wrong, J loves Mason in an unconditional, natural father way, but there will always be certain boundaries and lines because he isn’t his biological father. It’s a little sad because these restrictions aren’t created by Mason, they’re created by his father, who finds more satisfaction in using Mason as a pawn against his stepfather instead of encouraging the extra love and support J provides. That being said, J’s relationship with his father is so incredibly important to him and I’m so happy that he will be able to have that with his own son. I’m grateful that God chose to bless him with a son to carry on his name, especially since he chose to love and take care of Ana and Mason without the slightest hesitation.
There’s also a sense of finality to everything. We will have a family of 6, with 2 girls and 2 boys. I will have four children before I even turn 30 and be finished!!! There’s something about knowing that the “creating the family” part will be over and the “raising the family” part will be all there is to focus on. It alleviates this pressure that I wasn’t aware I was carrying around with me. I’m so thankful and so blessed and I cannot wait to meet my little man in 18 weeks:)